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ingredients to a bad day [ Tuesday
May 2006

]
1 part dad finding illegal substances

1 part being dumped

2 parts being ditched

too many parts getting upset over it.

it always turns out this way. [ Monday
May 2006

]
[ mood | over it. ]

Step one you say we need to talk
He walks you say sit down it’s just a talk
He smiles politely back at you
You stare politely right on through
Some sort of window to your right
As he goes left and you stay right
Between the lines of fear and blame
And you begin to wonder why you came

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

Let him know that you know best
Cause after all you do know best
Try to slip past his defense
Without granting innocence
Lay down a list of what is wrong
The things you’ve told him all along
And pray to God he hears you

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

As he begins to raise his voice
You lower yours and grant him one last choice
Drive until you lose the road
Or break with the ones you’ve followed
He will do one of two things
He will admit to everything
Or he’ll say he’s just not the same
And you’ll begin to wonder why you came

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

[ Wednesday
May 2006

]
[ mood | excited ]

so its my birthday, bitches.

i have a boyfriend and hes better than yours.

im going to miami to see james blunt in about an hour.

im pretty much awesome.

[ Thursday
March 2006

]
[ mood | bored ]

its been a while once again. so i figure i should write something down.

ive been so busy lately with work and school and whatnot, im never even on the computer anymore. its kinda weird. as sad as it is, my computer was almost as close to me as some friends a while back, i was addicted to it. but now, i go out and have fun with my friends and work and just dont even have the time to devote to it. its kinda nice. i mean, i miss having the time to relax and just play around on the internet, but i feel more...i dont know...like im living and not just sitting at home watching the time pass.

rambling. sorry.

i got my lip pierced again!!! im so excited to have it back. the only problem is that i have to be able to switch the ring out for the clear retainer thingy by the time i go to work tomorrow and i cant get the damn ring off! i dont really know what im gonna do about that one.

fall out boy makes me angry. infuriated. but theyre so damn catchy.

i started to kinda date someone. then he found out about my little penis problem (its not a big thing if you dont know what im referring to here) and after his reaction, im not sure if we are dating anymore. whatever. asshole.

but i like him.

i got tickets to see the sounds, morningwood and action action. fucking MORNINGWOOD! im ecstatic. is that how you spell that? it looks funny.

alright, im reading over this and realizing that i am boring, so i wont bother with anymore. have a good one.

[ Friday
February 2006

]
here is my attempt at posting a picture of my tattoo on here.

lets hope this worksCollapse )

what do you think?

[ Thursday
February 2006

]
i am in tampa. i just got a tattoo. im ecstatic. i will post a picture most likely tomorrow. i love it. woo.

i never use this anymore [ Tuesday
January 2006

]
so christmas break was fantastic. i did miss out on seeing some people *cough cough* but things are hectic, i understand. suprisingly...i seemed to have a found a new boy to play with. just a part-time gig tho. speaking of gigs, i got to go take pictures for this band at a hard rock live concert they played at...it was awesome. i got to go backstage, in all the dressing rooms, the green room, and i got to sit on couches that all of my favorite rock stars have sat on. so cool. anyhoo...yea. all i do is go to work and attend school with a bunch of ese rejects. thats about it. hope everyone had great holidays.

[ Saturday
December 2005

]
[ mood | drained ]

so its been a while. im working at red lobster now. you should come visit me if you're in the area and hungry. its not bad, i make ok money, i just hate serving people. i really hate that. but o well, whatever pays the bills, right? lets see....whats been happening? i saw hellogoodbye in concert and met the lead singer. that was exciting...pictures are on my myspace (www.myspace.com/lyndseyflowers) if you are curious. christmas is coming up. thats always exciting. i knocked out 90% of my christmas shopping in a matter of two days with only $120. im proud of my bargain skills. i am done with this term of school. i made three As and a B, which makes it my best semester so far. woo. i think im going to go to pcc for spring, just so i dont have to drive to tampa so often and i can save up some more money to move out again. hmmm....anything else? well, im dating a couple of people, nothing too serious. i miss kayleigh (hoping she reads this). she should definetly call me to hang out asap. so should everyone else. i like hanging out with people. well, im pooped and must work doubles the next two days...so im off. addington out! god i hate that man....

[ Monday
December 2005

]
i went to next big thing yesterday....it was alright. kinda boring. i didnt like the majority of the bands there, and i passed out a couple of times...but you know, i got to see gerard, so it was worth it. by the way, winter haven people should go to red lobster and sit in my section and leave me a good tip :)

[ Friday
November 2005

]
[ mood | giddy ]

so. i broke up with my boyfriend. im getting pissed. hes already talking to other girls. but im quite buzzed at the moment, so im not as angry as i would be. i guess thats good. hope everyone had a good thanksgiving. gobble. gobble. gobble.

so this is how i feel [ Friday
November 2005

]
im depressed/anxious/stressed 95% of the time. i know i do nothing to bitch, but you would too. you should go listen to feeling left out. now.

You're running free at record speed
My legs are crushed - my arms they bleed
Inside of me turns like a washing a machine
While outside I form a smoke screen

What happened to that girl I knew?
You look like her, but this can't be you
You're traveling to the Upper East Side
Make sure you enjoy the skyline

The rain comes down and hits my window
Proves to be
The rain is knocking at my window
Source of company

What if I Died?
Would it make any difference now
I know I'll feel better in the morning
But this is how I feel right now

If you need anything just call
The understatement of the year
Waving to an empty window
Once filled by your shadow

Disappear before my eyes
Before my eyes have time to cry
Help myself to a plate of
dissatisfaction

fuck me in the ass. [ Sunday
November 2005

]
[ mood | crushed ]

so lets see. my boyfriend is ignoring me. winter haven people suck. i live in winter haven. im bored all the time. im sober all the time. i got punched in my lip. which led to the loss of my favoritist piercing. i cant stop crying.

[ Saturday
October 2005

]
i've never felt more alone than i do right now.

i'm just ready to move on to that part in my life where everything is okay and under control.

[ Sunday
October 2005

]
i'm moving back to winter haven.

i failed at the real world thing.

long time, no journal love. [ Friday
October 2005

]
[ mood | loved ]

so its been a while since ive written here...things have been a bit hectic.

1. i have a boy. i like him bunches. he likes me more.

2. i am currently unemployed. never give up job opportunities for some shitty babysitting nazi...it will screw you up in the long run.

3. i am in horrible financial debt. no need to go into detail there, it just sucks.

4. i have straight A's!!! its been a while since ive had that...but i have been working my ass off at the whole school thing.

5. i miss kayleigh...we never talk anymore. busy lives create conflict with communication. but i have a proposition for her.

6. i got my haircut today. i went short...but it didnt turn out like i was hoping...guess i'll be investing in some hats.

7. family is good, we're all finally getting along.

8. still havent gotten laid in quite a while. i'm trying to hold out, but its getting harder and harder to do so.

9. i love cap'n crunch.

that about sums it up...any questions?

[ Thursday
October 2005

]
[ mood | cheerful ]

well last night was very unexpected and quite eventful.

wow. thats about all i can say. just wow.

i feel obligated.. [ Sunday
October 2005

]
Leave your name(via comment) and
1. I'll respond with something random about you.
2. I'll tell you what song/movie reminds me of you.
3. I'll pick a flavor of jello to wrestle with you in.
4. I'll say something that only makes sense to you and me.
5. I'll tell you my first/clearest memory of you.
6. I'll tell you what animal you remind me of.
7. I'll ask you something that I've always wondered about you.
8. If I do this for you, you must post this on your journal.

[ Sunday
October 2005

]
so ive been emo for about 4 hours now. my friends suck and i keep expected more from them, only to be let down. o well, now i have my good friend captain morgan and his buddy pepsi. im getting shit faced by myself.

it hurts.

he wrote me a poem. [ Friday
September 2005

]
[ mood | loved ]

ok, any guy that would sit down and write me a poem that made me cry a little bit has to be worth my time....
you know you're curiousCollapse )

[ Thursday
September 2005

]
[ mood | sleepy ]

alright....so theres this guy that i am seriously considering dating. theres just one little dilemma. (and this is going to sound pathetic, so go ahead and scroll down your friends list to the next person's entry)

ive wanted a boyfriend for such a long time and its never really gotten close to happenning. But this one, this one has a great chance of happenning. and i want it to. i think. i cant tell if i like him so much because we get along and have a good time and i like his personality...or if maybe im just thinking i do because i know if i return his feelings, he'll be my boyfriend without a doubt. make sense? i dont know. i just like to overanalyze things and think about them so much i turn myself away from the idea at all.

thats it. im done.

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